Long time no cry

I met with my psychologist today because I wanted to him to write me a note sop I can show my academic counselor that I have been seeking help with my stress problem. The session went fine until he asked me about how my parents have acting regarding my academics.

Don't get me wrong. My parents are great. They have been very supportive and not pressuring at all. They always tell me that it's ok, that I will do better. But for same reason, thinking about them made me cry.

I have no idea why I cried at all. And couldn't stop myself at all. The counselor asked me why I cried. After calming down and thinking a bit, I realized why I cried. I felt like I was letting my parents down. I keep beating myself up because they don't punish me for getting bad grades. In fact, they kept being nice to me and buying me stuff. It makes me feel bad and want bad things to happen to me. I never realized that I feel that way about myself.

So long story short. My counselor now thinks I am also emotionally distressed. I wonder how my mental health got so screwed up...